We're getting our ultrasound in two days. I'm so excited, I'm having a hard time focusing at work. I just want to look at baby stuff. But more like shopping, not education.
I always felt like being more educated about a subject left less to fear and you're more prepared that way. HA! Not so with having babies. Jon has officially banned me from reading about child birth, and I have banned myself. I was freaking myself out way too much! I'm still not sure how we are going to get this child here without me freaking out. I don't want an epidural AT ALL! I am more afraid of the needle and being stuck in that freaking bed than the pain. But then again, I've never had a child so maybe I don't want the pain either. Who knows! And I won't even mention that fact that I am an EXTREMELY private person and being so...er...exposed makes me nauseated and enraged at the same time. Ya, I think child birth is going to be interesting for me...ha ha and poor Jon!
This is a little weird too but I am teaching myself how to meditate (yes you may laugh but it helps me cope when people just can't help but tell me the last child birth horror story they heard). I've never been able to do it but I've found something that works for me. If I listen to music, more of the alternative style, and really focus on the words, I can block out almost all thoughts except for the words of the song. Granted the words have to be happy or it doesn't help much, but I think I'm on to something.
So the avocado is because babycenter.com told me my baby is the size of an avocado this week :)
2 comments:
You sound exactly like I did before Molly came. I was SO WORRIED about being...exposed also. And I was terrified of the needle for the epidural. Guess what? You don't even care!!!! My sisters told me that when the time comes you don't care about the needle or someone looking at you. You really don't. I was contracting for 48 hours before I started active labor, so I was begging for the epidural. Don't thinka bout the birth part though, just concentrate on getting that cute baby here, and the delivery part is just an experience. A great one at that :)
I was the same way.....I cried every time I had to go to the doctor because I thought they where going to have to check me but that doesn't start until you are almost done with the pregnancy and then its still not fun at all but they are really fast if that helps? And I am also so SCARED if needles but like everyone says when the time comes you will want one.....And when you are pregnant everyone tells you there worst stories about giving birth they never say the good things...
I was so SCARED to DEATH of having a kid but giving birth is the BEST part(if you have an epidural) then you can enjoy it so much more....It is so AMAZING!!!! You will do so GOOD Lynette you are a strong person!!!! and if you have any questions wired or what ever I will answer then for you. Congrats you guys!!! and sorry for being so long:)
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